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gotta clean and organize

my house is driving me nuts. everything is a mess and disorganized, there’s so many people and so much stuff! I’ve been doing searches for ideas on keeping a house belonging to a ton of people clean. this one looks to be a big help! check it out for yourself!!

Click here to visit I Dream of Clean.

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a new year

gee, I can’t believe it was last September that I posted! I had my surgery in August. then I decided in December to have my port removed since I was through with treatments. Figured I might as well get it done then since I had met all my deductibles.

things have been going great. My hair is coming back in all curly and soft. I like it.

We are trying to keep up on school work. so hard to do when you are months behind, but we keep plugging along! This is going to be a very busy year. I can’t mention it all yet because I don’t know who all is going to read this!! but I can say DD#1 is getting married in May, and DD#2 is getting married in July! I am making all the bridesmaids and flower girl dresses (we will reuse the flower girl dresses for both weddings) and I am making DD#2 Wedding dress. I’m also planning on making my dress for DD#1 wedding. I have an outfit I wore to #1 bridal shower that matches the wedding colors of #2, so I think I ‘ll wear that there! Busy, busy, but oh, so, fun!

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September 2, 2011

sorry, I have not been posting regularly again! I’ve been able to spend more time with my family and the computer has been put on the back burner!
So, I’ve been going to chicago every week for IPT treatments. Went for 3 weeks with 2 treatments a week. then they told me to take 10 day off so then they could do a blood test to check my tumor markers. got the test done on the 10th day. On the 12th day they said all my tumor markers had dropped by half (YAY!) By then it was the end of the week and they said starting the following week I could just do once a week for 6 weeks then retest. Well, by the 14th day I noticed my tumor was growing again (BOO). So I did one treatment a week for 3 weeks. There was a little reduction in the tumor, but we decided it was time to get it out. So on August 31 I had a mastectomy on the right side. It went well (other than they told me to be there at 9am with nothing to eat or drink after midnight the night before and then the doctor got one delay after another and I did not get into the OR until 4pm!) By 6pm I was awake and back into a room. By 8pm I was on my way home! I was near fainting everytime I got up, but I know it was from dehydration (they put me on a bag of fluids when I got there but by surgery time I had only gone through half the bag.) Once I got plenty to drink I felt fine. Amazingly, I have no pain! The doctor said that since he did not have to remove any muscle, just skin and tissue, that I would not have any pain, just maybe an ache feeling. The only place I feel that is in my armpit if I move my arm too far. I have a drain tube that I will get out on September 6. The drainage has been minimal. The doctor said he removed all the cancerous tissue and it was all well away from the chest wall and muscles. Once he removed everything he said what was left of my insides looked really good. PRAISE THE LORD!! When I started to wake up from surgery I found tears running down my face and this overwhelming feeling of love for Jesus. I had prayed before surgery that He and His angels and saints would surround me and guide the doctors hands. Thank you, Jesus, My Savior.

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God spoke to me today!

I was researching on the internet trying to find out more about selenium-infused spirulina. I typed it into the search box and one of the links that came up said: “We never get to tell people this! …. According to a study done in China, selenium-infused spirulina inhibited the growth of MCF-7 breast cancer cells”

So I clicked on it. This is where it took me:


GOD IS SO AWESOME!! Thank you, Lord!!

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Day 43 – Friday, June 24, 2011

Psalm 27:14 “Trust in the Lord. Have faith, do not despair. Trust in the Lord.” (GNT)

My last full day at AOOH! So weird. So sad saying goodbye to everyone! You get so attached to people you see 5-6 days a week for a month and a half! Did the usual Yoga and Food Class. Then to the clinic for SS and IPT. Tried to get lots of pictures with all my friends and got email addresses. It just doesn’t seem real that my 6 weeks are up.

Went home to work on packing and cleaning up the house. Got quite a bit done but still lots to do. I think our stuff multiplied!

Still have to go to the clinic one more time tomorrow. I at least have to get a blood draw and then wait up to 4 hours for the results to come in before I can leave. Trying to decide if I want to get the IV of SS or just take the drops and save $275. I can use the 4 hours to finish packing and loading up the car.

I just noticed it is 8pm and it is 104 degrees! WOW!!

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Day 42 – Thursday, June 23, 2011

Good grief, I can’t believe how fast this week has flown by!!

Couldn’t sleep last night, I don’t know if it was from the wheatgrass juice or not. Didn’t get to bed until 11 because I was trying to pack stuff. I think I fell asleep about 11:45 and then something fell off the dresser and woke me up about 5 minutes later. Then I was hot, but I didn’t want to get up to turn up the fan. Then Gerald started snoring in he living room, but I didn’t want to get up to close the door. Then Gianna started coughing! I finally fell asleep about 3:30 and about 4:00 Gerald phone decided it was low on battery!!! I was not meant to sleep last night.

Got up at 7 and went to Yoga at 8. I was a little cranky and didn’t want to go, but I made myself. It was really weird, but it was like she knew what I was feeling that day, because she started talking about stress and dealing with it!! I’m glad I went. I felt so much better afterwards and was not cranky at all after that!

Made mock “refried beans” and enchilada sauce in food class. It was really good. Went to the clinic for my IV and blood draw. Talked to Dr. W about my supplements for almost 2 hours! Before I headed for home I stopped by the nurse’s station to see if they had the labs back yet. All the nurses turned to me and started smiling (it was really weird!) They said it literally came in on the fax machine 30 seconds ago and they all gave me the thumbs up!! My reds were 11.8 (has to be above 10) and my white was 5.6 (has to be above 2!) YAY!!!

Went home and started packing stuff up. Hard to believe we have to be out of here in 43 hours. Wish things were a little more set about what we are going to do for treatments after this, but my dr. here and the one I may go to keep missing each other. The other doctor was not in today, and my dr. here is not in tomorrow. So that makes things a little sticky. I just have to trust the Lord has things under control and will let me in on what is going on when the time is right (man is that hard to do!!)

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I blogged yesterday about an Avon event planned for July 5, 2011. That has been postponed to November because a second garage sale is being planned for the end of July and the two organizers of the events got together and decided it would be best to work together and have one event at a time.

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Day 41 – Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight. (NIV)

Wow, this week is going by soo fast!! Jamie and I have had Yoga class all to ourselves this week, none of the other patients have been showing up! Hopefully someone goes to class next week after we are gone! I’d hate for the instructor to be the only one to show up!!!

No food class today because it is Wednesday and the staff has a meeting. But instead they had the colon hydrotherapist come in and give a talk about colon hydrotherapy. 4 patients plus my family showed up for that (last week was group therapy with the counselor and Gerald and I were the only ones there!!) Anyway, all the patients there at the meeting have been getting regular colonics anyway but it was still informational for all of us. The hydrotherapist told us her background and how she came to be doing what she is doing, which was very interesting and made us all feel a little better about what we were doing! She also gave us information about what we can be doing for ourselves and at home after we leave the Oasis. It’s too late for me to go into deep detail like I did yesterday, but if you want to know anything about it, let me know and I’ll get you the information. It is another big key to our overall health, as there are key points in your colon that are linked up to different organs in your body, and if one isn’t working properly, the other isn’t either. For example, I think we have determined where I’m blocked up because she has been massaging my abdomen and she can feel it and I can feel pressure inside when she does. And that spot is connected to my MAMMARY GLANDS!!! So, since I have inflammation in my mammary glands, I have inflammation in the part of my colon that is linked to my mammary glands, and that inflammation is causing me to be “plugged up.” I’m learning such cool stuff here!!

Went to the clinic, got my sodium selenite and then my IPT. It all went well, very little nausea. Sat and talked to another patient while waiting for my turn to see the counselor at 3pm. It is so nice to talk to other patients because you exchange so much information. I’m going to really miss that! After my 30 minute talk with the counselor I had to wait another 30 minutes for my colonic and after that I went home.

Starting to pack up things, since we have to be out of here by 4pm on Saturday. Got about half the kitchen stuff packed up, still a long ways to go on getting everything done. Tomorrow should be a short day at the clinic, so hopefully be able to get some progress made then.

Hebrews 6:18 “God cannot tell lies! And so his promises and vows are two things that can never be changed. We have run to God for safety. Now his promises should greatly encourage us to take hold of the hope that is right in front of us.” (CEV)

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DAY 40 – Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Well, you know how yesterday I had to go back down to the clinic to get my blood redrawn because the lab accidentally froze it? Just as we were pulling out of the driveway to go to the grocery store, they called. It was my white count this time (it’s either been my red, or my red and white, but this is the first time it was just the white.) BUMMER!!!! They told me to call them when we were on our way home from the store and the nurse would meet me at the office to give me the shot. Whoopie, there goes the budget. On the bright side, this shot is $100 cheaper than the one for the red cells, but it’s still $500. So, I got the shot about 8pm last night. 😦

We were talking about maybe being able to leave Friday night or Saturday morning since I would be getting my IPT on Tuesday and Thursday. That would mean I could get my blood drawn on Friday and know by Friday night if I needed any shots. I would miss a sodium selenite treatment on Saturday, but they are $275 for the IV. I could skip it to save money and just take the selenite drops under my tongue (I did that the day I had surgery and couldn’t make it in to the clinic.) Apparently God had other plans! Because I got the shot so late Monday night, they decided to move my IPT to Wednesday and Friday to give the medicine a chance to work on boosting my blood count. They called me while I was in Yoga to give me that wonderful news. I could be mad and throw a fit, or take it as a sign that we are not supposed to leave early. I decided to take it as a sign because it’s less stressful that way 😉 and there’s nothing you can do about it anyway. Just move on!!!!!

I didn’t get to go to food class because they scheduled me for Lymphatic at the same time, which is fine. Gerald and the kids went to food class and made a mock tuna salad. Lymphatics went well – so sad it was my last one! I’m going to miss Brandi! But since she is training us, I’m sure we will keep in touch! She says my tumor is still shrinking and getting softer each time and my lymphnodes under my arms are getting all cleared out, too. Yay!

Went to the clinic for my blood draw and sodium selenite treatment. Only took an hour again. Ran into the lady who is supposed to be the new nutrition/supplement person or something. We decided to ask her about all the supplements I’m taking and if I really need them all. She took us to her office and did kinesic testing, which seems a little odd. Basically I look at a blank wall and hold my arm out. She tells me to say my name and after I do she tells me to “resist” and presses down on my arm. Since I told the truth and my body knows it, there is resistance. Then she told me to say my name was Howard and then says “resist.” Since I am not telling the truth and my body knows it, my arm gives a little. She then takes the list of pills I’m taking and while holding my arm “asks” my body if this pill is good for me (she doesn’t say it out loud, just thinks it.) Then tells me to resist. If my arm gives, then my body is saying that it really isn’t good for me. If my arms resists, then it is good for me. Then all the ones that were “bad” for me she asked if there was a different brand that was better, or if the dose was right, or if it should be higher or lower. yeah, it was a little strange. I really don’t see how it works. Maybe my arm was tired that one time. Maybe I wasn’t ready. I don’t know. But I don’t know if I want to base any changes on that test alone.

Dr. W wanted to see me when I finished that, but she was busy when I got done! So we just sat to wait. I’m glad we did because Dr. L decided to come out to the treatment room and do a group question and answer session (I think all the patients they have were there at the time, so, cool!) There was one question and he spent almost an hour and a half talking about it!! He is so full of information! The question actually came from a patient we were talking to the day before. We had told him about the tests we had done to determine which cancer drugs to use. He didn’t know anything about it and he had been there 4 weeks. He and his wife asked the dr. about it after we told them and they were wondering why the information wasn’t given to patients when they first start there as options. That is why the dr. decided to discuss it with the whole group. Cool, huh!

He talked about how cancer is your body’s effort to save your life – it has the wisdom of God. Inflammation is your body’s way of healing. Anytime you have an injury or illness, the result is inflammation. Smash your thumb, inflammation. Get a cut, there is inflammation. Cancer is the end process of inflammation and we usually do not know the underlying irriation that caused that inflammation (unless you have a smoker with lung cancer, etc.) Your body is trying to cure the situation with inflammation. We need to work with it and not worry about trying to cure the cure. He believes that surgery on cancer is like sticking a knife into a hornet’s nest. The only reason you should have a biopsy is to find out how to kill it, not to name it. Everytime you poke it you spread it around (like the hornets.) But it’s okay to poke it the one time to find out how to kill it, because even though you may spread it a little, you will have the right tools to know exactly how to handle it and get it done right without just guessing that what works for “average Joe” will work for you. It’s like taking the average shoe size of everyone in America, and then only making that size shoe from now on. It will fit a certain number of people, but not the majority of people. Same thing with chemo. If you are going to poison it, at least use the right one. There is a test you can have done. A tumor is made up of 3 things: malignant cells, blood vessels, and connective tissues. They secrete chemicals which allow them to communicate with each other in order to grow. They take a living sample of this and rush it to the lab. Within 24 hours they are testing it against specific agents and multiple combinations of agents to see what works on that exact tumor. They actually found out that one man, with prostate cancer, had a tumor that was destroyed by Herceptin (a chemo drug used exclusively in breast cancer!!!) Who would have thought? I’ll bet he’s glad he didn’t play chemo roulette!!

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Day 39 – Monday, June 20, 2011

“I am the vine; you are the branches.” – John 15:5


Started the day with Yoga and food class, of course! Decided NOT to take all my pills upon getting up this morning and only took the ones I know for sure don’t bother my stomach. Drank my protein shake on the way to Yoga, then took half of my “questionable” pills an hour later. I didn’t get the stomach upset, YAY!!! Drank 2 oz of wheatgrass juice to try to keep my red blood cell levels up. I CANNOT GET A PROCRIT SHOT THIS WEEK!! IF I DO, THAT WILL WIPE OUT OUR GAS MONEY FOR GOING HOME!!! (God will provide, I know!! Hopefully He provides by me not needing the shot!!)

Did Lymphatic Therapy at 11. It is amazing how much that helps! Gerald is being trained in it while we are here and when we can afford it we will get the machine so I can get treatments at home. He got to practice a little on my tumor yesterday and they noticed a difference in it today, so it definitely helps. I know it helps with sinus congestion, too! My ear keeps getting plugged up but when they “practice” on my face, that goes away! It’s such a cool thing!!

Went to the clinic to get my IV of sodium selenite, blood draw, and colonic. Luckily my IV finished before my colonic, such a pain to drag the IV pole into that little room! Before I left the clinic I asked if my labs came back yet since they like to call me when I get home and tell me to come back! She said they went out late and it could be up to 3 hours before they get back and they would call me. So I went home and then Gerald and I walked up to the Lifestyle house to get 2 more ounces of wheatgrass juice. We need to run to the store, but Gigi was still napping so Gerald and the boys decided to get into the pool for a bit. Then the clinic called. The nurse felt so bad, since we just had the conversation about being called back in, and told me she just got off the phone with the lab and apparently someone had a specimen that was frozen and mine accidentally got in with theirs and froze. So, they could not use it for the test they needed to do and I had to come in so they could draw it again! I told her that I would rather come in for a redraw than for a shot! She still felt so bad about it. But I told her that this blood draw will give us better results than the first one and we both said a little prayer over it that it comes back great!! So, I expect my phone NOT to ring tonight!!!

I must share that God has answered some prayers for me today! Knowing this is my last week here and everyday we gain wonderful knowledge from not only the staff, but other patients, I prayed last night and this morning that God will guide us to ask the right questions, be in the right place at the right time to hear information to benefit us, that the doctors will be guided to give us the information God wants us to have and lead us to the right places. IT ALL HAPPENED TODAY! And it was all so obvious! It’s wonderful when God is obvious, isn’t it!! One lady that we almost never see, but is a wealth of information, was everywhere we went today! We got a lot of info from her and will be meeting with her tomorrow for more specific information! We were also God’s instruments, today. We told some people about a test we had done here that they had not heard of and they were very interested in it. We ran into them later in the day and they thanked us and said they talked to the doctor and it sounded right for them and they were getting it done tomorrow!! I know there are over a couple dozen little examples of that simple prayer being answered today! GOD IS SO AMAZINGLY AWESOME!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU, LORD JESUS CHRIST, MORE THAN I CAN EVER SAY.

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